Incomplete sentences

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything for this blog. On one hand I feel like If I write something I should try to publish it as well. If I put something on my blog, I squelch any chance of getting it published. On the other hand, sometimes I just want to experiment with my voice. Something like this has absolutely no commercial interest, at least without a theme. I can’t sit idle. It’s difficult for me. I have to be doing something. Learning, writing, fidgeting. Sometimes I listen to music, sometimes I listen to podcasts. I keep my mind active otherwise I start going stir crazy and start fidgeting. Keeping busy. That’s an incomplete sentence. It’s good to interject those every now and then just for emphasis. I’m at a point in my life where I feel like I’m not doing enough, but I’m wrong. It’s just about everything I can. I have four books and this week I decided to learn Spanish. This is partly because I’ve been applying for several jobs and a lot of places ask how many languages you speak so I figure this would look better on a resume. The other thing is I feel like I want to accomplish something. Learning a language is a lot like running a marathon. It talks time, effort, and most of all dedication. I haven’t decided how I’m going to do it yet. I don’t necessarily want to take a class. I want to learn it on my own. I found a Spanish pod cast and I have the total emersion software from Costco, it’s just misplaced at the moment. I also want to try the method my grandmother suggested when I was a kid and watch Novellas. I there a Telemundo version of Hulu? I took Spanish in High school, but I didn’t take it too seriously. I learned how to conjugate a lot of verbs a few nouns, but never really was able to put it all together. The problem was it was all book work and I never ventured out to use any of it. I never attempted to have a conversation en Español. I used to get pissed if someone started to speak to me in Spanish. It annoyed me a little bit. I thought it was a ridiculous proposition to just start speaking to someone in the United States in Spanish. Not to be stereotypical (actually I am going to be stereotypical) but I don’t look like someone that would know how to speak Spanish. I mean, I understand if someone asks ¿Hablo Espanol? I don’t understand just speaking Spanish a million miles an hour as if you assume everyone in the free world speaks your native tongue. You never see a guy from China go up to someone that looks like Owen Wilson and start speaking Mandarin. I decided to get off my high horse though. I subscribed to the Spanish101 podcast. I’ve listened to three of them now. It surprising how after years of being dormant the stuff I learned in Spanish class is slowly being resurrected. I have no idea if I’m spelling any of this correctly, this is the draw back of learning from a podcast. Comos Estas? Estoy Bein. De Colores et cetera, but I learned new stuff too like lentamente (slower) and Entonces(so and then so) which is a concept I still quite understand. I also don’t understand why someone would say more or less when asked “how are you?” More or less what? An incomplete sentence? Things are going pretty good with Kim too, she’s my only subscriber, which is fine. I mostly do these things for myself but it’s nice that she subscribed. She motivates me and I don’t even think she realizes it. She’s just being herself. It’s nice.